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Deacon Candidate Faith Story--Michele Peck

Deacon Ordination

Friday, February 3 | 7:00 p.m. Sanctuary

This week the 2BC Blog will have the faith stories of the three individuals who are candidates for ordination as Deacons. Take a moment to read the blog and get to know these servants of our church in a deeper way.

Michele Peck

I believe that God does some of his best work during the most heartbreaking times.  That he surrounds us with people who love us.  People who are willing to get messy with us and show us who God really is.                                                                                                             

I have had some heartache in my life.  My biological father was an alcoholic.  When I was a baby, my mom packed my brother and I up, sold her wedding ring for necessities and escaped in order to provide the kind of life for her children that she thought we deserved.  Growing up, I never hated my biological father or felt that he didn’t love me.  He had a disease that prevented him from being the person he probably wanted to be.  And, I grew up with a father who loved me as if I were his own. 

My cluster of heartache came when my daughter Ally was little.  Brad and I were struggling with infertility.  We tried many procedures for several years and found ourselves broke, tired and I was angry at God.  If that wasn’t enough, my dad was diagnosed with brain cancer.  We faced a painful journey with the inevitable at the end.  After grieving the loss of having another child and the death of my father, we readied our hearts for adoption, only to have the mother choose to abort.  This was the beginning of a bitter time for me.  I began to live a story that was about me.  I wanted answers and I wanted a crystal ball to look into to tell me when my problems were going to be over.  I found myself doubting God and wondering why he would allow so much pain and uncertainty to be in my life.  This is when God showed the darkest of hours.  I was invited to be a part of a 2BC Renovare group that met weekly.  This group of women dug into my wreckage and I began to see some light.  My anger turned into patience and realization that God was with me during the bitter and the sweet.  Upon the group’s encouragement, I began to see Ray Kesner.  I know that Ray is humble, but I feel it is important that people know when they change a life. He helped me to be at peace with many things I haven’t discussed here today as well as the ones I have.  During the time I was meeting with Ray, my family went out to dinner.  As we were eating, Ally asked when we were going to get that baby.  We had not found the words to tell her.  When we told her that the mom had changed her mind, she started crying so hard that we had to leave the restaurant.  We had to go to the store that night and when we were there, I felt a nudge to purchase a pregnancy test.  I had no idea why, but I did it.  The next morning, I was meeting a friend for an early run and took the pregnancy test before anyone else was up.  I was pregnant with Hope! I don’t know who was more excited when I told them…Brad or Ray.

Today, when I look back on my life, I realize that it has been full of bitterness and sweetness and I need them both.  It is the bitterness that brings me strength and draws me closer to God.  Shauna Niequist says it best when she writes: 

The idea of bittersweet is changing the way I live, unraveling and reweaving the way I understand life.  Bittersweet is the idea that in all things there is both something broken and something beautiful, that there is a sliver of lightness on even the darkest of nights, a shadow of hope in every heartbreak, and that rejoicing is no less rich when it contains a splinter of sadness. 

Bittersweet is the practice of believing that we really do need both the bitter and the sweet.  Sweet is nice enough, but bittersweet is beautiful, nuanced, full of depth and complexity.  It’s courageous, gutsy, audacious, earthy.

My symbol is bittersweet chocolate.  I have chosen it because just as you have been there for me during the bittersweet times in my life, I want to be there for you too. I want to get messy with you and show you who God really is.  Thank you for this honor. 

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